My GPS & I have a love-hate relationship. It’s complicated and often times, I get way off course — even when I try to follow the directions. I feel like my GPS isn’t clear in it’s directions, sometimes, I’ll swear that it doesn’t even say anything — as if, it expects me to know! And, when it is saying the directions, out of nowhere, it’ll say “Turn left here.” as I breeze on past the intended path.

& then, there are the times when I simply can not fathom not having it — I look forward to the voice telling me that even though I’m lost, right now, it can certainly get me back onto the correct route.

I was driving along the other night and the thought came across my mind, as I was bickering at the GPS about why it couldn’t tell me to turn left 30 seconds BEFORE I drove past my third missed turn… and the thought was simply this… “at least it doesn’t remind you of every single missed turn…” Can you imagine?

“You forgot to turn left 4 miles ago.” “You missed that right, 3 days ago.” “Remember that time you were wandering around lost, for 30 minutes?”

“Remember that one time, when you lied to your mom?” “Four days ago, you made a really bad decision.” “You messed up, again? Really?”

Sometimes, my memory is far better than that of my GPS; it’s as if I can remember every single mistake or wrong turn that I’ve ever made. And, they come up, often.

It’s impossible, sometimes, to move forward when I’m constantly hearing about how I’ve made yet another wrong turn…I can’t hear clear directions when the voice that I’m trying to follow is constantly being drowned out by the sounds of, “remember when you messed up, 2 years ago?”…”Remember that dumb thing you did, 2 weeks ago?”… it’s impossible to hear where I’m supposed to be heading above all of the voices screaming about how I’ve failed, yet again.

There is a reason that the GPS doesn’t constantly go back and remind us of all of our “missed turns” — they don’t matter. They don’t change where we are heading, right now, today. The missed turns and bad choices that we’ve made before, this very second, they don’t matter now.

If we would stop listening to all of the voices in our heads telling us that we’ve constantly make mistakes and listen to God’s voice — the one telling us that we no longer have to make those mistakes — that the only thing we need to focus on right now, is following HIS voice — that He’s willing to give us step by step directions into His perfect plan; He’s willing to guide us to the exact location that He wants us to be in.

& although, I’ll be the first to admit, when we’ve gone really far off from where our original destination was, sometimes, it’s not the easiest route to get back — but God is faithful to provide every single step for us to get back to where we were meant to be in the first place.

We just have to pay attention to the directions; stay focused on the voice, and if/when we miss a turn, we have to choose to allow Him to re-route our paths…

God doesn’t remember our wrong turns, so why should we constantly remember them ourselves? That is not the place that God intends for us to be — He intends for us to be in a beautiful place, a grace-filled place; He intends for us to be surrounded by the truth & not the lies that we’ve learned to cling to.

“This is the covenant I will make with them after that time, says the Lord. I will put my laws in their hearts, and I will write them on their minds.”

Then he adds:

“Their sins and lawless acts I will remember no more.” (Hebrews 10:16-17)

Love. (10/31/11)


For even ten…

Sometimes, we use the stories that people have told and we mix it with the facts and we come up with a concoction of something half true. Then we take the half truth that we’ve created and we defend it, we share it, we feed it to others; the entire time believing that we know the entire story and all of the facts.

Over the next year I plan to read the Word of God and see what it actually says and to make my own opinions and sort out my own thought processes based on that alone.

I’ll begin with one that I thought that I knew but seemingly knew little about – and I’m sure that you’ve heard of it, too.

Then the Lord said, “Because the outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is great and their sin is very grave (giving cause for alarm; serious.), I will go down  to see whether they have done altogether according to the outcry that has come to me. And if not, I will know. – Genesis 18:20-21

I can begin by saying that you’ll probably be amazed (as I was) by reading Genesis 18 – first of all, the Lord (I believe it to be Jesus himself) appears on earth and chats, eats and discusses life with Abraham. He spoke truth into Abrahams life, caught Sarah in a lie and then discussed a terrible problem here on earth with a righteous man who trusted Him.

And, Abraham, a man of God who loved people – He asked the Lord a question that we have all asked (and some may not even know Christ based on what they believe His answer to be), he says “Will you indeed sweep away the righteous with the wicked? Far be it from you to do such a thing, to put the righeous to death with the wicked, so that the righteous fare as the wicked! Far be that from you! Shall not the Judge of all the earth do what is just?” (vs 23.25)

Haven’t we all said that? But, if God is just why does He…

How could a just God destroy an entire city…

I know that I’ve asked.

The amazing part and what I didn’t remember reading or hearing in this story before is this…

Then he (Abraham) said, “Oh let not the Lord be angry, and I will speak again but this once. Suppose ten (righteous, having morals) are found there.” He (the Lord) answered, “For the sake of ten I will not destroy it.” (vs. 32)

The next part absolutely tears apart my heart and I certainly can’t imagine such a wicked scene playing out before me…

Two angels go into the city and they find Lot (the only man with morals) and the angels tell him that it’s time to leave the town because it’s going to surely be destroyed. Lot pleads with the angels and invites them into his house, so they agree.

This is what transpired:

But before they lay down, the men of the city, the men of Sodom, both young and old, all of the poeple to the last man, surrounded the house. And they called to Lot, “Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us, that we may know them.” And they (the angels) struck with blindness the men who were at the entrance of the house, both small and great, so that they wore themselves out groping for the door. (19:4-5, 11)

Can you picture that? It’s like a scene off of Animal Planet.

It’s hard for me to imagine and even harder I’m sure for God to have seen and dealt with. And, the most amazing part, to me, is that He would have still been willing to defend the entire city – for even ten righteous (not perfect, just displaying moral character traits).

I guess sometimes we think that we understand something and the truth is that if we were placed in the same situation as God I’m not even sure that we’d react as kindly as He has towards us. I know that I certainly wouldn’t have.