I wish that someone would have given me a handbook, a list, directions of some sort — perhaps a map to where I belong. Lately, I wish that someone, anyone, could tell me what to do, which decisions to make and which path to choose. Mandy, choose this. Walk this way. Wouldn’t that be the easiest way? I’d never be able to get it wrong.
But instead, somehow, the decision has been left in my hands & I’m holding a map that I can’t seem to read, heading to a place that I’m not sure that I can see.
I wonder if I could possibly get it wrong? If somehow, the decision that I make would change the course of my life, for worse & not better. Is that possible?
And, then, I’m reminded… ”He redeemed my soul from going down to the pit, and I will live to enjoy the light.” -Job 33:28
God redeemed my soul & even if, I get it wrong every single time, even if, I never choose the easy path or make the right decision — even if, I choose the hard path, the lonely path, even when I choose what is painful… I will live to enjoy the light.
Nothing that I do or say, no decision that I could ever make will have the ability to take that away. At the end of the day, every day, my life will be full of light, of goodness, of love.
All that I know is this: God is enough. & I’ll chase after the light.